And So The Story Ends

Good Morning World and thanks for tuning in to the penultimate post day here on Planet Magnet. After this post there will be only one more and that won’t be for a couple of weeks as I tell the story of my walk along Britain’s oldest Road.

That means this is post number 499!

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Quite an incredible feat but one that I suppose I am quite proud to have achieved.

I have always said that I would share my life with you guys for the next 499 posts, after which I would walk the Ridgeway for the Charity HENRY and make my 500th and final post about that very walk.

It is hard to consider the person I was when I started out on the journey. Some people don’t even recognise me as I have changed so much physically, others don’t recognise me because I have changed so much mentally.

Regardless of which is more significant I think we must all agree that since my surgery and subsequent life change, this person…

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With My Mum!

Is no longer anything like this person….

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If we consider way back when I started this little blog after advice to do so, I was incredibly unfit, unhappy, lonely, I was letting life pass me by and I was disengaged.

No more though.

What a difference 18mths and the help and support of medical professionals and all of you guys here on Word Press who come to read my words every day. Some of you read quietly and fly under the radar and some of you read and comment and encourage. Regardless of which camp you fall into, I appreciate you all so very very much and I thank you all very much from the bottom of my heart.

You guys have made the incredible challenge of 499 posts a possibility and I am so happy that I have completed what I set out to do I think all I need do now is wish myself Bon Voyage, Bon Chance and Bon Temps for the next week of walking. You will be able to follow my updates on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram…..

So until I write and publish the story of my walk, I shall leave you with these words from T.S Elliots Little Gidding (pointed TO me by Osyth from Half Baked in Paradise but here mixed up by ME) and hopefully they will sum up all I have been trying to say…

“To make an end is to make a beginning so always remember last years thoughts belong to last years language whereas next years words await another voice”

So ’till the last time,

Stay out of the fridge.

P.S. Don’t forget to follow this link and donate to my just giving page.

Saturday, Saturday, Sat, Sat, Saturday…!

Good Morning world and thank you as ever for tuning in to the wonderful world of the Planet Magnet!

Today finds me in a simply wonderful mood and extremely happy with all that is going on in my world!

Yes certain things could be better but if we think back to Thursday’s post “It never rains but it’s been biblical” I spent time writing about trying to find the positive in things and not being overwhelmed by all that is happening in our own little worlds on a day to day basis.

For this reason at least I am determined to spend the next two weeks in a state of “uptempo fiasco” 😉

Not really but I think I should size the day and enjoy all that life has to offer me at this moment because people, we only get the one crack at it and I don’t want to end up with my whip only half cracked when it times to shuffle off of this mortal coil – something I do not plan to do for at least another 50 years minimum 😉

So why so happy? Well no particular reason but lets look at things shall we?

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It’s Wanting What You’ve Got….*

Good Morning world and thanks for tuning in to another day here on Planet Magnet.

Today brings us yet another start to a new week. A week where anything is possible.

And that is what I want to talk about today.

We some of us go through life hitting ourselves over the head with a metaphorical book of “should have and should have not’s” wondering if we will ever learn from our mistakes, if we will ever get to where we want to be. If we will ever achieve what we truly think should be ours to achieve and if we will ever be content.

Well, nowadays the way I see it is that life is a journey and not a race. It took me years to realise that life is to be enjoyed as much as you can. Not to be searching for something that is always “just out of reach” but maybe consider that something that is right under your nose.

Today I look at what is in my life right now and I gladly embrace it.

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A BIG Thank You To You ALL….

Good morning world and thanks for tuning in to another day here on Planet Magnet.
I need to start this days short post off on a very positive note by saying a huge

THANK YOU 

To you all for your kind words and positivity.

It really did help me.

I was able to man up, take the pain of putting my head in the game and stick it well and truly high above the parapet.

I went to the lunch and I had a WONDERFUL time.

So how crazy is it that I felt like I might be going to expire as I was driving there….?

I know it probably makes absolutely no sense in real terms and no sense to someone who does not feel the feelings us anxious people get but it happens and the only way past it is to take a deep breath and suck it up because if we do that enough we will soon find it first nature and not even second. 

People like us for who we are and that is something we must always remember. Again I know that statement is easier said than done but trust me when I say, if we keep doing the same thing we will keep getting the same results so we must take our heads from the sand.

I am extremely lucky to have a friend who puts up with me and cajoles me and builds me up. She makes things easier for sure and another support that is really amazing is to know that there is real care, love and affection from people whom I have never met and only exist in my life as words.

Yes, I mean you.

So thank you.

‘Till tomorrow,

Stay out of the fridge.

Easter Egg Anxiety….

Good morning world and thanks for tuning in to another day here on Planet Magnet!

It is Easter Sunday!

Relax and take a load off!

Unless of course you are in the frame for providing the big lunch and get together for everyone else…

No, if that’s the case, start panicking and get the stress head ready because after all, when the shops are closed, it is the very day you actually need something….. 😉

As for me, I have been invited to a friends for lunch. I have not met any of the other people going so as ever my anxiety is getting a little unwelcome outing but I shall try to keep that at bay, put my head above the parapet and get on with it.

What is strange is that now matter how far I feel I have come over the past year, at the drop of a hat (or invite to be precise) I can still feel like this.

Anxious.

But it is anxious over the silliest of things.

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You Are Not Alone

I am here with you….*

Good morning world and thanks for tuning in to the last day of the working week, here on Planet Magnet…

What a great week this has been, lots to do and plenty has been accomplished. People seen, coffee’s had, catch ups completed along with working, writing, chores and much more. In fact yesterday whilst I was working I had tuned out so much (due to the tedious nature of the job in question) that when I came back to reality I thought I was talking to myself, only when I discovered my lips weren’t moving I realised I was having an internal dialogue with myself…..

What?

Oh yes, this one here has internal dialogues with himself when he isn’t paying attention. How scary is that!

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My Latest Couch Trip

Good afternoon world and thanks for tuning in to another day here on Planet Magnet. I have chosen write the blog a little later than normal today because I wanted to let you know how my trip to see the Counsellor this morning panned out and how she answered my queries about the massive disparity between new body brain and old body brain.

So this morning I was fortunate enough to be able to start the first of six sessions with Kathleen, at my local Health Centre. A bit of a result as far as I was concerned because usually to see anyone in this capacity, it would mean a trip to a major city or Oxford at the very least. This means I was able to take my time and be relaxed about the whole thing, or as relaxed as I can be whenever I am experiencing something new….

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A Bit Of A Snafu….

Situation Normal, All Fu*&£d Up.

Well, last night I was cooking for Tasty Tuesday and that is where the problem started because I went ahead and got all of the ingredients, set about cooking and then found that there was a three and a half hour cooking time! And that was only on ONE of the ingredients!!

OMG!!

Well, to say it put the kibosh on it being posted to day would be an understatement. If I had have continued to cook last night, I would have ended up still stood in front of my hob and cooking at nearly One am.

I think I can be forgiven for not doing that….

So, that shall be posted tomorrow and instead today we bring you a quick report from my Doctors/Psychoanalysts visit yesterday.

I am SANE!

I know it is so crazy for anyone to think that but it looks like I have been given a clean bill of mental health.

What were the odds I wonder…!

Anyway, I walked into the Churchill Bariatric Centre yesterday afternoon a little late due to the traffic snarled along the main ring road around Oxford, but was seen almost immediately which was great as it meant that I would be given longer to get all of these random thoughts off of my chest.

Well after an hour I was done and the Doctor had listened to all of my woes, worries, concerns and thoughts however random they appeared to pop out of my head.

Suffice to say after a series of questions, he informed me that I am doing everything absolutely right as far as my lifestyle is concerned, I was correct to do something about the alcohol problem (in the form of stopping and and starting a course of Disulfiram – nausea inducing medication when taken with alcohol) and was pleased that I had started to address it. Unfortunately there is no magic cure for the change of the body not being met with an equal change of the mindset so it really is time and positive affirmation with me telling myself I am slim and I am still losing weight. I need to reinforce the facts and my mind will be more ready to catch up.

This is obviously something I will do over the coming months and I shall see him again in approximately three months so it will be almost a year on from surgery. This way we shall be able to determine if there are any residual issues that need working out because it was difficult to pin point any one issue I am currently having because at the moment I am in a good place. I am happy with life and all that it brings, I am happy with how I look at present and I am happy with how fulfilled I appear at this moment. My Zen like state will continue and as long as no one comes and upsets the apple cart and I shall go from strength to strength.

The Doctor really was very good, he covered all of the issues but found that I had already considered most of them. Obviously I can no longer really over eat plus I am not really inclined to do that anyway. I exercise (when the body allows – damned body!) and I am active. He told me that my socialising would grow and I would be more inclined to go out as time passes and not have to use alcohol as the crutch I once did.

To be honest, I left there yesterday realising that it is good to talk, to talk about anything at all. It puts perspective on anything we might be thinking about, it makes us understand it by vocalising it and it helps us deal with it by simply getting it off of our chests.

As for me, it must have worked because last night the traffic on the way home was that bad, a 25 minute journey took nearly three hours to complete yet I was still in a good mood when I arrived home to cook dinner for a friend and I, with her remarking that I was “on one” and asking why I was so upbeat.

So it turns out BT were right all along.

It’s good to talk.

‘Till tomorrow,

Stay out of the fridge.

A Bit Of A Scheduling Change

Good morning, afternoon, evening friends and thanks for once again tuning in to the words biggest fridge magnet.

Today being Tuesday I usually follow a new recipe and make a dish for my recipe section, but unfortunately that was not the case yesterday as I forget to get the ingredients!!

To that end it will be here tomorrow, if I get time today that is because I am due at the hospital for the bulk of the afternoon and still have my daily chores to accomplish.

Still that is the plan, so if it simply my recipe you want me for then you will have to come back tomorrow. If however you are an avid reader of all things magnet then please do continue reading as I ramble on about my life and the random things that happen along the way 😉

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Feel The Fear….

And do it anyway.

Susan Jeffers wrote this remarkable self help book and released it way back in 1987. Possibly before many of guys were born, or in my case, many years after…!
It is hard to consider that this type of book would have been so wee received when you consider how backward (and we considered ourselves progressive…!) the world was way back when. Today we readily accept self help books as part of life. We accept mental health issues a great deal more readily than we might once have done, we accept the fact that people share on forums, people share by blogging their experiences (I am a prime example of this as you would agree).

Now I know and understand that peoples lives have changed out of all recognition in comparison to the decade affectionately know as “The Eighties” but back then I doubt very much if this kind of approach was given as much credibility as it is today.

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