Good morning world and thanks for tuning in to what a appears to be a rather lack lustre day here on my own Planet Magnet.
The sun is out, the sky is blue, there’s not a cloud to spoil the view……
Yet I am suffering from a massive lack of motivation which is something I have found totally alien to me for the past several months. Yes I have had “down days” but today I have a train ing program to start and I have not felt this de motivated for what appears to be a lifetime.
So what is wrong?
Well I could put it bit down to being absolutely worn out which I suppose could be true, but we all know that when we are worn out we only need to get ourselves to the gym and the body just naturally finds it’s way again and we get back into the swing of things with our Mojo coming back in spades.
Today however I am feeling nothing but numbness toward all things Cameron. Whether it be training, writing, working, cooking etc etc. I have literally no zest at all.
Admittedly I did walk the dog and it was quite a decent walk of about 5kms but it didn’t really put me in any better of a mood.
Maybe it is the sheer size of the task that is in front of me that has subconsciously taken me down. Maybe it is the fact that I am only just beginning to realise what I am trying to achieve is a great big ask of anyone with plenty of on time on their hands and yet I (as you guys know) am not someone that could be considered as having enough time let alone any to spare.
I therefore suppose I had better suck it up and get on with it as best as I can and maybe, just maybe my sparkle will come back and I will be fighting fit and ready to get into the swing of things.
At least that is what I am hoping will happen. I will rest for the remainder of today and I shall start small but take important steps toward the targets I have set myself. Maybe I am simply just tired out and therefore unable to get going. Maybe I have too many tasks on my mind and am struggling to know where to start. Maybe I am being lazy?
I suppose that all of these are possibilities that should not be discounted if I have no real idea of what is actually wrong with me but in trying to get a handle on it, I am hooping to find where my funk is originating and perhaps work on that a little.
Anyway, I am sure as I ever, I will soon be right as rain as the saying goes so until that time, if you can bear with me (something I appear to ask you guys to do on an all to regular occurrence of late) I will continue to appreciate your ever increasing support.
Stay out of the fridge.