Good morning, afternoon, evening friends and thanks for once again tuning in to the words biggest fridge magnet.
Today being Tuesday I usually follow a new recipe and make a dish for my recipe section, but unfortunately that was not the case yesterday as I forget to get the ingredients!!
To that end it will be here tomorrow, if I get time today that is because I am due at the hospital for the bulk of the afternoon and still have my daily chores to accomplish.
Still that is the plan, so if it simply my recipe you want me for then you will have to come back tomorrow. If however you are an avid reader of all things magnet then please do continue reading as I ramble on about my life and the random things that happen along the way 😉
This afternoon I am as I have said, due at the hospital for a meeting with the Psychologist to discuss how all of this weight loss has affected my life so far.
Some you may may recall that over the past few weeks I have discussed that I have possibly been struggling to come to terms with my weight loss and I am concerned at how it has been affecting me mentally. I know to some people who are overweight and want to lose, or to some who have started the journey and want to be where I am that it may sound a trifle arse about face, possibly likening my problem to someone crying because they have won the lottery but there is honestly much more to it.
For example, I was walking across the driveway the other week and the sun cast a shadow in front of me. This shadow was tall and slim and totally at odds with what I am used seeing so I turned around quickly to see who was there but soon realising I was alone and that obviously it was my own shadow! I was stood on my own, yet my brain could not compute that part of the equation.
Another thing I do is when I am out clothes shopping I automatically look for 3XL or even better 3XLB in the sizes yet if I were to put any of those sized clothes on, they would drown me! I have to learn to look further down the standard size range at the Larges and Extra Larges. Even then however, amazingly all of these depend on the designer because in Hugo Boss I am a XXL but in Polo I am a Large – go figure! Still, a nice problem to have though….
I am also wanting to discuss the fact that I am worried about not going out as much and socialising due to not enjoying going out for meals as much, the fact I have felt the need to give up drinking (partly because I can no longer do it) so miss it quite a bit a present and finally because I feel totally at odds with my body size and how people view me.
I think I have also discussed before how people now look at me differently, or in fact, don’t tend to look at me at all in some cases because I am just Joe Average (apart from being a very handsome Joe Average of course…. Cough, Cough…. 😉 ) People are much more friendly as passing strangers than they ever were before and it almost confuses me because I don’t want to look as though I am ignoring them or unhappy, but in the same light, I really don’t want to walk around grinning like the Cheshire Cat because people will think I have a medical issue or some such.
So today we go to get some answers. Or at least I do because I am sure that I am not the only one who finds this can be a very confusing time for a Bariatric Weight Loss patient. A time that we have not been prepared for (although some might say simply be happy that you have the operation and have lost weight) and so really do not know how to deal with it because lets face it, the “go to move” of overeating has been taken away and unless we really set to it with a a vigour and extremely poor food choices, it will remain a non option. That said however, there are a great amount of people who have had surgeries and after three years start to pile the weight on again as their lifestyle fails around them. Could this be from a lack of psychological support? I do wonder, if so, I don’t plan on being another number for their statistics.
Let’s see what the Doctor says a bit later…
Stay out of the fridge.