Good morning world and thanks for tuning in.
Yes ladies and gentlemen. It is the eleventh hour and I am just starting my tome for todays blog.
Now I have always known what the saying “Leaving it until the eleventh hour” has meant and my past history has pretty much been that I don’t do that (yes there have been a few frenzied posts written on the day) but today I am leaving it until the eleventh hour and it really is the eleventh hour! Now I could have written this piece on this very morning, but this very morning I want to concentrate on writing 500 words for the effective writing course I am currently attending and I think if I wake thinking about this blog I shall be sidetracked into doing anything but writing 500 words…. – that was a whole lot of writing there, I hope you kept up!
Now normally I would at this stage of the day be quite concerned that I had not written anything or that I had no idea what I was going to write about but do you know what? Since everyone has told me I need to step back and do what is right for me, I honestly do not feel like this. Yesterday’s blog was so positively received by so many of you that I am finally understanding that I need not worry if I haven’t got everything worked out, I need not worry if my food is not written down (and today I had a very good food day with good choices made throughout and low calorie and carbohydrate count’s) I need not worry if I have no screenshots for you guys to look at because you will trust that I did walk the dog yesterday (admittedly it was only a slow and short walk because my young nephews and niece had tired him out with the ball just before our walk) and you trust that I did not go to the gym but that I was still relatively active.
I am feeling the start of a re-energisation coming over me. I feel that I am kind of throwing off the shackles of fulfilling my self imposed, answerable to my audience and totally accountable for all of my actions. I need to learn to relax and go with the flow a little, I need to enjoy what I do. Basically I need to follow all of the fantastic tips that were left for me in all of the comments that I received yesterday.
Yesterday I had for the first time in a long while an enjoyable day. I enjoyed a walk with the dog, I enjoyed the sunshine on my face (yes, it was sunny here in dear old Wantage) and I enjoyed my trip into the countryside to pick up some of my family so they could visit my mother. Most of all, I enjoyed spending time with the three young children that came to visit along with my brother and sister in law.
I have in the past taken this for granted but yesterday? Well yesterday I actually spent the entire time with them at my mothers house whereas usually I would have disappeared after sticking my head through the door. I would have said hello and then been off to do something on my own leaving them all to get on with their visit.
Maybe I am growing up, maybe I am beginning to understand that certain things are important, maybe it was just what I needed after the self loathing of the previous two days but I do know it was most definitely the most enjoyable thing I had done for several weeks and that is what I needed for sure.
So today see’s me a trifle brighter and more settled, smiling at life and feeling that I am on the cusp of the next stage of my journey. Yes I know it is early days but as Osyth from Half Baked In Paradise proffered as soon as I start to “Let it Be” things will start to flow instead of pushing me where I might not want to go.
So as the old saying goes “Onward and Upward!”
Stay out of the fridge.