And I Think To Myself What A Wonderful (Cyber) World

Almost in the words of the great Louis Armstrong, I would just like to say what a wonderful Word Press world we live in. This community is a warm and caring place with so many like minded souls all trying to find their way on this hectic road that is life.

I must confess to recently losing my way. My dedication to my blog has dropped, my dedication to my training has dropped (well, fallen off of a cliff if I am honest) and my dedication to eating healthily has definitely waned along with them.

Yes, I am still walking but not the huge distances I once was. Yes I am still blogging but to my mind not at the same level I started out at and yes I still eat well, but some rubbish has crept in alongside the heathy and I am feeling as though I am letting myself down somewhat.

And that is where you guys have come in and do your very best to keep me afloat when I am currently feeling like the plug has been lost and my little blogging boat is taking on water faster than I can bail it out! I appreciate all of the kind words that you all offer and take strength from the support that you give.

I now realise that I am on a much longer and much harder journey than I had once thought, having to address some extremely difficult points and make some (what are turning out to be much harder than I had anticipated) changes as I do so. I need to get right with myself again. As I said, I have lost my way somewhat. Maybe I need to take things back to basics a little. Maybe I need to simply just write what I feel and not what I think I might be expected. Maybe I need a complete change of tack. Maybe I need to stop the food and activity parts of my blog all together and simply write about what I have achieved along with writing about how I am feeling and whatever other banal idea’s I might have.
I actually do wonder if the activity part of my blog is one of the reasons I am not going to the gym (along with feeling crap from the viral thing I suppose). Maybe its because of all of the paraphernalia I have to carry and wear in order to simply just work out. Maybe its because I have to write down what my exercises were, how many calories I burned etc etc. Maybe it is simply because I am just a lazy bugger….!

Therefore things need to change. Not necessarily wholesale but certainly for the better. I need to address my tissues and I need to take my life back for me where it has been missing for the past several weeks.

To that end, I now promise to do my best by all of it and would ask if you can be patient with me as I start once again to find my way and get myself back on track.

I think that is all there is to say today apart from one more heartfelt thank you 🙂

FOOD DIARY:Tuesday 27th October 2015

Qty Measure Food Calories (gr) Protein (gr) Carbs (gr) Fat (gr)
Breakfast  1  Mini Muffin Egg, Cottage Cheese and Ham Mini Muffin  130  18  4  4
 2  400mls  Tea  11.8 0 0.8  0
Lunch  2  50gms Mothers Pride Slices Dry Toast  230  9  43.8  1.6
Dinner
 1 Small Bowl Homemade Chicken Curry  175  19  13 7
 1  50gms Wholegrain Rice  70  1.5  12.25  1.5
Snacks
Totals  616.8  47.5 73.85  14.1
Water 3  500mls  Mineral Water  0 0 0  0

So the more sharp eyed of you will have noticed that I am not tracking my food and calories from two days before the posting day, but instead I am now writing the diary for the day before, just as I do with my exercise and Jawbone tracking. As I said above I am not quite sure how long I will continue this for but I am thinking that changing things around for a bit might be the kickstart that I need to get this blog back on track along with the authors mindset….

‘Till tomorrow,

Stay out of the fridge.

30 thoughts on “And I Think To Myself What A Wonderful (Cyber) World

  1. poshbirdy says:

    It’s good to try changing the format of the blog. I love hearing about how you are doing, and the stats themselves just make me feel naughty so I don’t read them anyway! Don’t lose the focus here – that you are charting your progress and sharing the joys along the way

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  2. sleeveforme22 says:

    I understand the accountability you feel to the blog format because you have been so consistent for so long but like anything in life, changing things up is always a good thing. You should blog what you feel, not what you think we want you to say or what you think you should say. It is more important to be authentic. Your blog should be more about you, less about us if that makes sense. Don’t worry, we will still enjoy it, enjoy lifting your spirits, enjoy cheering you on or just be there to offer kind advice or a kick in the ass when warranted. I think sharing the struggles as much as the successes is an important part of this transformation. Having said all of that, let me end by saying that you’ve got this, friend.

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    • Worlds Biggest Fridge Magnet says:

      Thank you Janell. that is very sweet of you to say all of that.I appreciate that things cannot be like they were forever, I think the problem is I am simply struggling with a few issues of change in my life and the goals I am setting myself. I want be the best person I can but sometimes allow everything to get on top of me and I press the self destruct button and BOOM!
      You are right in my need to be authentic, it is what sets us all apart and makes us the happy creative and successful people we want to be.
      Once again, thank you 🙂

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      • sleeveforme22 says:

        This procedure does make us face a lot of change – it isn’t just about physical but more mental really. Facing some of those challenges are our biggest hurdles. Stop with the alcohol (never makes any situation better) and if you need an escape find a better way — Yoga, Tai Chi, etc. You will clear your mind and your heart that way. You need to work on you and the rest naturally will fall in place. And you know those goals you are pressuring yourself with? Progress, not perfection.

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      • Worlds Biggest Fridge Magnet says:

        Very nicely put. Yes I do need to get myself back to me with a past time that will help me and centre me. Something that will help me find myself once again. I have some soul searching to do and will do it over the next few days because I think it is what I need to do. As Ed said, I should maybe sit down and write a list of things I like to do and see if there is something I could take up as a past time. It is only by doing this kind of thing that I will be able to get myself back to being myself. If it is Tai Chi then fine, Yoga, again then fine, I simply need to work out what is good for me and do it whilst I have a clear head and a desire to succeed.

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  3. dinahhowland34 says:

    Don’t forget that although it’s a beautiful autumn this tends to be a low energy, slightly down time of year with the season change and dark nights bla bla… I reckon you’ll feel much chirpier in a couple of weeks when we’ve adjusted to winter daylight times. xxx

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  4. Osyth says:

    My favourite line is ‘Let it Be’ …. not because I am complacent but because if I relax and just get on with things ‘it’ becomes apparent. Life is not a straight line journey …. it twists and turns and it twists our tail and is often uncomfortable. Let it be and the rest will follow. And for heavens sakes take out the bits you aren’t enjoying – you are not supposed to be wearing a hair shirt and you have no accountability to anyone but you.

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    • Worlds Biggest Fridge Magnet says:

      I shall. You make good point Fiona.
      I need to take a leaf out of the “Let it Be” point of view and just relax and let my life flow. As a friend said to me a few weeks ago when you go searching for something you are holding on too tight to whatever you are searching for, so tight in fact that you lose sight of what is right in front of you, what you already have and what is indeed good for you.
      I need to calm my mind, do more of what I enjoy and as you say, change out of that hair shirt because it does neither me nor anyone I know any favours.
      Cameron is coming back, 2.0 Stronger and fitter and better than ever before because he will be more relaxed with life than he has been for long many a month…. 🙂

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  5. jncthedc says:

    Being healthy and HAPPY is challenging. It requires as much effort as any job. Finding both Passion and Purpose in life has grounded me, significantly reduced stress and permitted me to find real happiness. You have your organization, HENRY. This is one area you can give to AND receive as a result. You DON”T have to focus on weight. Focusing on creating a healthier life (physical, emotional and spiritual) will result in weight changes. Don’t view your diary and electronic devices as punishments you need as a result of weight issues. I have kept a food diary in my computer since 1995 and wear a heart monitor and record the details after every workout. I do not have any weight or health issues, as a result of this preventative approach to life.
    Don’t overwhelm yourself. Make small gradual changes. They accumulate over time and the benefits become very evident. Our wordpress community provides real support and truly cares. Good luck with all future undertakings.

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    • Worlds Biggest Fridge Magnet says:

      Wow!
      Thank you for that.
      I think you are right, I need to get back to basics and start to enjoy my health and happiness. It will take time and be another journey for sure. Maybe I will continue to wear my monitors but only for me, recoding the information in the phone. Recording my food stuffs in the phone also.
      You are so right about HENRY, I have the chance to make a difference with this charity and making a difference makes me feel good and fulfils me in a much better way than drinking does. I need to re-focus my efforts and fulfil my life in order to be healthy mentally. This is some sound advice (even if I did make an arse of the reply 😉 )

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  6. New Journey says:

    Make it fun my friend…shouldn’t be a burden to go work out…I make it as simple as I can…I have even gotten to the point where I don’t wear a bra when I get out of the pool, LOL so difficult to put on damp…probably to much info but just making my point…into the shower, and then I just put on a frock (American for a loose fitting dress) literally…LOL and out the door to the car….and before I went on my 3 day weekend I was keeping track on a separate paper calories, carbs, proteins….I always kept track on my app on my phone, so I stopped charting in a separate journal…I know I need to in cooperate more protein less carb so I am just doing that….I had to stop dissecting everything to death….be happy, carry on, and get on with it…that’s my mantra….I know you can figure it out…sometimes leading the healthy life style is fucking boring….but you have come to far and have reached such wonderful goals….reset, restart and move on….you can do it….you have so much to give to us out here and you really do help so many……no pressure, but we out here in this community have come to care for you Cameron…your not only my friend but so many others…hell you have people sending you cards to the wrong gyms reaching out to you…LOL hang in there I feel your frustration…one day at a time..XXkat

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    • Worlds Biggest Fridge Magnet says:

      Thanks Kat.
      All salient points about the training and food monitoring.
      Thank you for the kind words about people caring, it really does make a difference and all of the lovely comments are so nice to receive.
      I really do feel part of something which is amazing because really and truly all it is, is a line of ones and zeros but they travel across cyberspace and make us all feel so much better to know that someone somewhere has our back.
      WP rocks 😉

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  7. Amanda says:

    We are all here for you Cameron! Send a direct email to me anytime if you just want to talk- although I’m sure your insights would benefit me more than you at this stage, but I’m a good listener. I think finding that balance of things in our lives is such a difficult thing to achieve – let alone maintain. Digging deep and connecting with your soul, where you’re truly happy, can be a scary thing. We dont trust ourselves enough maybe? Al I know is- you keep doing YOU and it will come. As far as the food and fitness waning, tomorrow is a new day. Dust the dirt off your shoulders, chin up, and try to make it a little better than yesterday. One step at time, one day at a time. I think the ‘thank you’ is definitely deserved to you as well. You offer others (including me) a fresh and honest view of our journeys, and we take them seriously and are heartened by your comments. Seriously, reach out if you need an ear or brainstorm. I’m here.

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    • Worlds Biggest Fridge Magnet says:

      Thank you Amanda, very kind of you to say these things. I shall certainly bear it in mind that I can contact you should ever I need to. It is always nice to have friends to reach out to. Today things are looking a lot brighter along with my mood. A weight seems to have lifted and I appear lighter so hopefully I can start to move forward.
      Likewise if you have any queries then please contact me. I am trying to make a good fist of this entire thing so am pleased that my thoughts help people and my comments touch the heart.
      As far as my fitness and food are concerned, I have to say that since Sunday, even though I consumed the dreaded alcohol, all has been good with my food and today I go to the gym to discuss my future.
      Things WILL be good!

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