Still Crazy After All These Years

So allegedly it was either Albert Einstein or Benjamin Franklin who said “The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results”

Whether this is true that Einstein said it or not, or if Franklin said it or not, it certainly does sum up the feeling of many a fat person.

Food like any addiction can hold a great power over a person.

This is true of many people and unfortunately I have to be honest that on some days it is still true of me.

Food can be an emotional crutch which is odd because you wouldn’t think it changes the mood, yet certain tastes and ingredients will release endorphins into your system as quickly as a drug user may get a hit from their recreational drug of choice or a drinker may get the instant relaxation from the moment an alcoholic drink touches their lips.

Over the years I would wonder why I hadn’t lost weight after a heavy week of exercise but I would still continue to eat lumps of bread and butter with a big bowl of soup. Have chips (fries) with every meal  Maybe to eat cereal directly before my bedtime. I would go to the pub as often as I wanted and if anyone was handing out chocolate, well hey, I was always first in line. Yet then following week I would go back to the gym and smash it out once again and come the end of the week again be confused by my lack of weight loss progress. Yes I may have gotten bigger and more muscular but in my heart of hearts I knew I had not become fitter or lost fat where it needed to be lost from.

This of course was my “insanity” because I never once picked up on the fact that I was repeating my actions in this cycle. Even during the sedentary time of my life where my weight increased dramatically, I never put the proverbial “two and two together” I just carried on regardless and allowed my eating habits to get out of control with the aid of the side effects from my medication.

I am a good deal luckier now because I don’t immediately turn to food as my solution to my issues. This partly because I have over the past five months been training my brain to desire healthier foods, plus I no longer keep the bad foods in my larder. I am also a great deal happier than I have been in many years (a fact I may have spoken about once or twice… 😉 )

BUT this doesn’t stop the urges completely. If I am having a bad day I can quite easily think “To hell with it, I shall eat some biscuits” of course I would usually have to go and buy the biscuits first but this isn’t a problem because of the convenient world in which we now live. Shops are open almost 24/7 in some places. Even here in a small town in middle “ish” England, we have supermarkets open until 10pm. Now I know that these are open to help people shop who have had a late day at the office, or to let you quickly run to the supermarket and pick up a forgotten ingredient or some milk and bread for the morning. The only thing is, they also sell the bad foods that a food lover wants and this makes our fix all too readily available.

Fortunately enough since my operation I am limited to the amount of food I can eat so that encompasses crap food as well. Because of this, no matter how bad I might feel, food cannot be the crutch it once was because I cannot consume anywhere near as much as I once did in order to heal the hurt I was feeling. Unfortunately it doesn’t stop the mind from wandering or the brain from asking, I am just glad to have developed enough of a modicum of will power to keep me sane.

At least for now…. 😉


Qty Measure Food Calories (gr) Protein (gr) Carbs (gr) Fat (gr)
Breakfast  1 Small Bowl Seriously Nutty Muesli  172  3.7  28.4  3.9
 1  350mls  Phd Diet Whey Protein  182  34  5.5  2.8
Lunch 1  400mls Phd Very Berry Recovery Drink  290  23.04  46.1  0.96
 1 Small Bowl Ham Hock, Rocket, Peppers and Chilli Salad  190  18.6  4.7  12.2
Dinner  1 Small Bowl  Spicy Prawns, Rocket, Peppers and Chilli Salad  170  34  3.9  0
Snacks  2  400mls  Tea  11.8  0  0.8  0
1 400mls  Latte  105  6  9  4
Totals  1120.8  119.34  98.4  23.86
Water 3  500mls  Mineral Water  0  0  0  0

A good day on the food which is the third day running so happy days. The carbs were a little high but that was because of the recovery drink. Calories were spot on and fats were low so all in all a very good day.

Yesterdays exercise was kicked off with a dog walk at pace and it was a good pace that I was very happy with. By the end of it we were both suitably tired and I had yet to get myself to the gym! The Map My Walk screenshot has been seen before but never with these numbers…


The walk was again followed up with a good session in the gym with the cardio levels remaining the same as before – Cycling at level 4, Stepping at level 6 and Cross Training at level 8. The Strength Training continued with the tweaks as well….

  1. 2 x 30 Reps 35kg Abductor machine
  2. 2 x 30 Reps 35kg Adductor machine
  3. 2 x 30 Reps 35kg Abdominal Crunch machine
  4. 2 x 30 Reps 35kg Lower Back machine
  5. 3 x 30 Reps 25kg Cable Row
  6. 2 x 30 Reps 20kg Chest Press
  7. 2 x 30 Reps 35kg Pec Deck
  8. 3 x 30 Reps 22.5kg Tricep Pull Down
  9. 3 x 30 Reps 8kg (each arm) Bicep Dumbell Curl
  10. 3 x 30 Standing Oblique 20kg Barbell Twists (15 each side)
  11. 3 x 30 Standing Russian Oblique 20kg Barbell Twists with 5kg extra load(15 each side)

Which gave me the Polar H7 reading of over 1000 calories burnt for the exercise.


And adding this to my jawbone and the fact I took my Mother shopping in the afternoon (which meant trekking around a very tourist packed Oxford) the final numbers were over 16,000 steps absolutely smashing the daily target.


So with yet another good day of activity under my belt and the knowledge that I am not a total slacker I shall spend my time wisely today and although won’t be smashing any of my numbers to bits, I shall still walk the dog and keep myself moving and active.

‘Till tomorrow,

Stay out of the fridge.

8 thoughts on “Still Crazy After All These Years

  1. Osyth says:

    I remember when I quit smoking successfully I realised finally that all I would ever be able to do was stop. That actually I would always want a cigarette in certain circumstances and that the solution lay entirely with me. No-one but me. Once I embraced that power and stopped worrying it was extraordinarily easy. I still crave a cigarette occasionally but I don’t micro-analyse the feeling, I just accept it and move on. During the process of quitting I occasionally lapsed but did not dwell on it. I imagine at some level this is the process you are going through in managing your own addiction

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    • Worlds Biggest Fridge Magnet says:

      Yes Fiona, that is very well put. I do manage my addiction to the sugary carbs in a very similar way to your quitting the fags.
      Thank you for sharing that, I hope others read it and take some strength from the fact that regardless of addiction, it is always achievable but constantly there.

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  2. sleeveforme22 says:

    I had a strange moment yesterday. I was so stressed out from work issues. Normally my first thought would be to turn to food. However, I found myself saying, “I wish there was a yoga class tonight.” What? Who am I? The studio I attend by my house didn’t have a class that I could go to, but their second location did. I drove 20 minutes (each way) out of my way for a yoga class. I felt great after and thrilled at my revelation. Win!

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  3. New Journey says:

    Hi……I felt the urges today…the tebel was back telling me it was ok to eat what I wanted.,.big fight going on in my head…at the top of my calorie quota tonight…. Good post… No matter how much we loose it will always be a battle, some days harder than others…. No beating myself up over it…just write it down own up to it and move on…

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