We Fall So We Can Learn To Pick Ourselves Back Up

Tell me no secrets…

So I am now sharing my daily diet with you along with my gym activity and my Jawbone records.

Pretty bloody transparent I would say.

Although I still struggle daily with my food cravings, I generally master them on the whole. However, when Batman’s butler Alfred Pennyworth asks a young Bruce Wayne “Why do we fall? We fall so we can learn to pick ourselves back up”, you would generally think that it is relating to a much more significant issue rather than having a bag of crisps or eating too many biscuits. This is not the case though. The fall can be anything that has a grip on you and I kind of didn’t realise the extent of the grip that some foods had on me and now wonder in some way, if my actions over the past 15 years of weight gain have led to me suffering some kind of related issue along the lines of food addiction.

As with all things in my life, I find I can pretty much leave them be when I am not in the mood. I have never found myself under the spell of drugs or booze or shopping or excessive exercise (the last one I know is a given ūüėČ ) but when it comes to food, since my operation I do wonder if there are some small (or major for that matter) issues sitting at the back of my mind. I know that I no longer have the physical capacity to sit and eat a packet of biscuits, nor do I particularly have any desire to do so, but¬†I do wonder sometimes why I still allow myself one or two when I know that I really shouldn’t; and when I do it’s almost like an automatic pilot has taken over.

It really is the weirdest thing to try to explain to someone who has no desire for food apart from to eat to live, but with me, I wonder why when I opened a tub of ice cream I was able to empty it in one sitting and why even now I still have those desires to do the very same. Because of this I can thoroughly understand why other addicts would choose to go to A.A, G.A or N.A but it would seem just plain weird to be sitting in a room with people needing to talk about their addiction to food when all I have is an occasional irresistible craving for Chipshop chips or a burger or ice cream or chocolate etc etc. But I can give in to them so maybe I need to learn some coping techniques?

I know that I have been exercising a great deal more than I was and to that end, it is highly likely that part of the reason for craving more calories is due to the fact I have been burning off much more than I normally would. The problem though isn’t necessarily answered by that, the problem exists because of¬†the type of food that I crave to replace these calories with. I can manage to deal with the cravings through the day, I can almost cope up to the evening but sometimes I snap and it is the reaction to that snap that I need to change where I take it and deal with it rather than take it and run with it.

Neuro-Linguistic Programming¬†is a form of therapy that can be undertaken to deal with this type of problem¬†and knowing that I have the issue has to make it easier to identify the reason behind it.¬†NLP¬†is an approach to communication, personal development, and psychotherapy created by Richard Bandler and John Grinder in California, United States in the 1970s. Its creators claim a connection between the neurological processes (“neuro”), language (“linguistic”) and behavioural patterns learned through experience (“programming”) and that these can be changed to achieve specific goals in life*

I shall therefore undertake some sessions of this therapy in a bid to understand and better deal with my cravings because I really do not want to be in a position where I am twelve months down the line and am still struggling with weight loss. Obviously my exercise that I list and the food diary I share with you will go a long way to helping with my issue but I hope that a “wee bit Therapy” will also go a long way to helping kick the bad habits into touch.

FOOD DIARY: Wednesday 6th May 2015

Qty Measure Food Calories (gr) Protein (gr) Carbs (gr) Fat (gr)
Breakfast  1  400mls  Tea  19  0  3  0
Total (gr)
Lunch 2  300mls  Latte Waitrose 210  0  0  0
 1  20gms  Cathedral City Cheddar Cheese  80  5  0  7
 1/2  250gm  Thai Chicken Curry Soup  185  3  11  11
 1  80gm  Ciabatta Roll  213  6.4  36.6  4.1
Total (gr)
Dinner
 1/2  150gms  Prawns  90  24  0.1  0.5
 1/2  100gms  Rogan Josh Sauce  70  1  7  3
Total (gr)
Snacks  1  22gms Snack-a-Jacks Caramel  91  1.6  17.4  1.7
 1  600mls  Tea 28  0  6  0
 1  250ml Upbeat Protein Shake  149  20  12  2
Total (gr) 1135  61  93.1  29.4
Water  1  500mls

Food intake was okay, a small piece of cheese was eaten at midday but I was out of the house and needed something before I fell over! Lunch of Soup and a roll was okay too. Roll meant that there was no butter, so saved calories there for sure.

At the gym I was also very active now upping my weights and reps on all of my exercises.

3 x 15 Reps 25kg Abductor machine
3 x 15 Reps 25kg Adductor machine
3 x 15 Reps 25kg Abdominal Crunch machine
3 x 15 Reps 25kg Lower Back machine
3 x 15 Reps Calf raises. Own body weight
2 x 15 Reps Leg raises. Own leg weight
3 x 15 Reps 20kg Cable Row
3 x 15 Reps 25Kg Chest Press
3 x 15 Reps 15Kg Tricep Pull Down
3 x 15 Reps 5kg (each arm) Bicep Dumbell Curl

Again very happy with the work out. I can do all of the exercises properly and without issue all in under 30 minutes so it should really be no hardship for me to go!

As for the Jawbone, well this is how it saw my information today. I also used it to set something called Idle Alerts. This a something where every 90 minutes the jawbone band buzzes on my wrist and tells me to move my arse. My chosen thing to do? Well I live on the top floor of an apartment block with no lift so I walk down the stairs and walk back up them as quickly as my little fat legs will carry me… ūüėČ

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Do you still struggle with cravings and eating naughty stuff even though you know you shouldn’t and have no real control over the self control?

‘Till tomorrow,

Stay out of the fridge.

* Description courtesy of Wikipedia

2 thoughts on “We Fall So We Can Learn To Pick Ourselves Back Up

  1. Vicki McFall says:

    I’ve been a member of OA since July 2011 , sugar free ever since ….. Check their website out ….. It’s definitely made this process easier for me as I don’t need to deal with cravings as much as others. It’s also kept my head straight on the hard days x

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  2. Worlds Biggest Fridge Magnet says:

    I shall, thank you so much for this, I shall certainly give the website a whirl. I’m slightly envious of you being sugar free, that is one hell of a big step to make. I am having some cooking lessons next week so hopefully that shall help me in my plight. We shall see!

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